I don't..........I do believe in fairies?

Well haven't posted in ages- feeling too bored to do so i guess... Watched a splendid movie yesterday- 'Finding Neverland'. Very sweet movie about J.M.Barrie, author of 'Peter Pan', played by the always brilliant Johnny Depp and also featuring Kate Winslet. It's the story of how Barrie was inspired to write 'Peter Pan'; his inspiration being the Davies’ boys and the book was based on his friendship with them. It was one of those movies after watching which you cannot help but feel good.... I was practically floating on air, re-living all my childhood and adolescent fantasies (for the curious these did NOT involve anyone you PERSONALLY know). I suddenly felt vindicated in living in my dream world. It was alright to retire to this 'Neverland' of mine when I chose to, as Barrie had done... I vowed to myself, to honestly create my own 'Neverland' without external influences. Not Tolkien's Middle Earth and not Pan's Neverland but my own unreality....
Disaster struck however, when my friend prompted me to find out if Barrie was indeed a pedophile or just accused of being one. I was offended initially on behalf of my newly found "companion" on journeys to the dream land, but I was simply too "grown up" to ignore the possibility of an unpleasant disaster in 'Neverland'. I read an article afterward; the writer didn't denounce Barrie as such but seemed to think 'Peter Pan' was disturbing rather than the magical disneyish story we had imagined it to be. It certainly was about the boy who never grew up- about Barrie himself but the likening Barrie to Humbert from Lolita made me sick to the stomach. I am glad that the writer conceded that Barrie didn't indulge in any sexual activities with the Davies' boys or even betray any want to do so but it still irks...
I agree that Barrie was an immature adult who simply wanted to escape the realities and responsibilities of life by remaining a boy forever but to accuse him of feeling anything but friendship with the Davies…….., that my heart will not allow.
Needless to say, any wishes of emulating Barrie were speedily squashed. I realized I couldn’t stay young forever- it’s too…… too cowardly… Plus I haven’t a brother’s death to confront in my past or any other equally tragedic incident so I haven’t anything to run away from really. Yet I do enjoy retiring, temporarily, to a dreamworld and so I shall try to create one… maybe everyone should…